Refraining from doing something is a great act of courage; the tendency towards doing something, means being aware of an instinct, almost out of control, that lead us to act in a certain way; The most famous is the sexual one, a voluptuous drive that reminds us our natural-nature. Despite our effort to hide our origin, mostly with old and anachronistic gimmicks, our natural nature is that and still celebrated with shameless pleasure.

Coming back to our act of denying: is that difficult to refrain ourselves to act impulsively? The answer is yes. Beyond the great “courage” it needs a self-restain over the average, a well-ignored self-consciousness.

The fact that we lack formal education on this subject and that the same educators lack knowledge leaves us with only the outdated idea that attempts to connect the sexual instinct to “love” (kiss-coitus-kids-family), in which the outcome (or product? – the child?) is frequently an unintentional thing or being.

What does it mean to avoid a pulsion?
Anguish (?) Tedium (?) Painful somatic implications, partially generated by psychic dynamics. The first step in detoxification is to refrain from a daily action caused by a pulsion. This (long) procedure is comparable to the detoxification from psychotropic drugs in that it takes time and is the first destructive act. Fortunately, the subsequent steps are less traumatic and the initial one is almost exclusive.

Being (us) alive is crucial because, in a drive conflict, the balance (human control of the instinct – the trigger for such activities) is essential. Breaking away from a habit (vice) related to an instinct is crucial.

What transpires when there is a pulsational balance or imbalance? (Let’s replace impulsiveness with lust because the most basic instincts are associated with voluptuousness.)

Balance:
The being reveals itself fully, awake, cunning, and infinitely present in its presence. The harmony that results from the balance encompasses the entire body, including the soul and psyche (slave of both dimensions, never a master).
And it is precisely through this dialectic dynamic of opposites that a pulsion transforms into a life-mine, providing the body’s engine, its neuronal activities, and spiritual vitality.

Imbalance:
When the balance stops, the soul falls in the whole black: the body becomes the object of involuntary spasms, unconscious as a carrier agent of noetic activities of ontological destruction. The human loses control of its frail existence in this last-ditch effort, becoming the prey of instinct and a mere object in the hands of the unconscious.
Psyche: of which neuronal energy becomes atomic, uncontrolled, explosive. Mind: now disconnected from the entire human and absorbed in its unrestrained games, where the feeling of the objects around it (and with it, the time/space idea itself) no longer has any meaning

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It may also go by the names panic, anxiety, or agony. It lasts a brief instant or years. Finally, the long-awaited satisfaction is attained. What we have always desired has now evolved into our most despised belief, which has caused displeasure and misery.