Premise

Desire is the key concept of this article, so, no apologies for the repetition!

Meditation I – Sturm und Drang

I

The fact that I am here, right now, and the object that is my body, are two things that mysteriously stand out in every representation of the (my/ours) reality.
I’ve always thought that my presence in the cosmos is just a fact that I’m aware of., and that my relation to others—or, better, to objects—is wholly subjective.

During those ruminations, I used to connect the dots between my existence and the pasts of other beings in outer space who weren’t me, perceiving the present that belonged to me and sensing the present that belonged to my conscience. In those moments, I came to acknowledge the fact that I was a living being—a melancholy object—and that I was nevertheless alive.
Two distinct experiences between things and beings. Every encounter with those beings is solely motivated by misery and despair. Being among objects was a constant source of conflict, a struggle for reproduction, whereas being among beings was a symbol of simple mortality, here and now, the icy touch of the pure non-being.

Desire – the lonely sing of the desperation

I

(for not using the pronoun “us”) desire due to an innate need for reproduction. I had always assumed that desiring was merely a trait unique to humans, but after the experiences that followed, I understood that I was just a mammal.
The idea of love serves to tame the wild, unbridled yearning.
At the same time, I’ve discovered that love is an intriguing experience since it reveals both our human nature and our remote connection to wild nature.

Humans are capable of abstract thought and concept creation, so we invented the idea of love to stifle our irrational need. The sincere desire to help and assist one another, which is typical of many species on this planet, is also represented by love. As a result, we share this wonderful idea with all living things.
By referring specifically to this succinct justification, I acknowledge that my origin and the struggle are essentially mine as a human being.

The paranoid impulse

W

e have seen how desire and love are not completely compatible. We desire because of instinct, not because of love. Any attractions to the other individuals are what I consider as desire.
Our lives are largely driven by our desires. Every interaction we have is subconsciously influenced by the primal filthy desire. This is merely a thought about the essence of our being, not a pessimistic view of life or the world. Humans have the capacity to experience suffering without becoming affected by it, yet we are aware that we are caught in the instinctive black circle even beneath the heavy conscience.

I won’t write much more about it; instead, I’ll just allow you some time and space to consider your current circumstances in relation to those of your fellow humans and other living things.

The paramount conflict

In every connection/relationship we can see a latent conflict. I don’t mean that our lives are based on conflict because we live among people, but since we are part of nature, the answer is obvious, implicit.
How can we get out of this situation? Of course, for many people, that is not an issue; their lives are filled with love and happiness; but what about your inner being? How can we become actual humans in the face of our wild impulses and habits? Nature, instinct, and untamed habits are not inherently bad; rather, they are obstacles to the happiness of certain individuals who are unable to overcome that fundamental and embedded dimension.

By mastering our instincts, we can become successful and fulfilled owners of ourselves.
This is/was merely a meditative exercise. The solution is to go out and figure it out for yourself.

Postface

^{I was still blind, but twinkling stars did dance Throughout my being’s limitless expanse, Nothing had yet drawn close, only at distant stages I found myself, a mere suggestion sensed in past and future ages.
Novalis}